I still can’t believe I’m a mom of 2! It’s so surreal to see both kids hanging out with me on the weekends. I always thought London would be my only kid and the fact that we have a routine, I didn’t want to change that. The older she became the more she asked us for a sibling which sparked the thought in my mind. I began to get on board with the idea of having two little girls with curly hair that would be best friends and travel the world together. They would be roommates in college, share clothes and always be my little girls. Clearly I was delusional about the fact that I most likely would end up having a boy. Can you imagine my disbelief when the doctor called and screamed “make room in Scout’s closet because you’re having a boy”. My mouth dropped and I responded “Are you sure?” I mean, this news threw a wrench in my plans. I immediately started thinking that he’s going to marry a woman that can’t stand me and will not allow me to see their kids. I was a hormonal mess, if you can’t tell by now but let’s fast forward to how life has been with a girl and a little boy…
Im so in love with Rio Dash and the feelings are completely different the second time around. I love my children equally the same but this time around, I know what I’m doing! I was in complete shock when I got pregnant with LS and I while I was in love with her when she was born, I was also confused about how drastically my life had changed in a blink of an eye. I lived in Montreal away from my friends and family which made me want to run back to NY every chance I got. I went from being a party girl to a mom almost overnight. I wasn’t depressed but I also wasn’t happy. My daughter and hubby were so amazing but I couldn’t help but feel a void in my life because I no longer lived in NY and also wasn’t completely happy with what I did for a living. I wanted more and didn’t want to settle. As LS got older I began to fly to NY every week and 14 months later I decided that my family needed to come back home for my sanity. As soon as I moved back I was a much happier person! Fast forward to the second child and now I’m over the moon in love. My career, family and friends are all aligned and I’m use to being a parent. I know exactly what to do and appreciate every minute of the newborn phase because I now know how quickly it passes.
How I’m handling it all
I have a great support system and luckily my hubby can work from home. We split the kids so he is in charge of taking LS to and from school, castings and ballet while I focus on Rio and work. On the weekends I take a couple of hours to spend with Scout one-on-one so she doesn’t feel left out and we also do 30 minutes of alone time during the week before she goes to bed.
I sleep separately from hubby so I can take care of the baby during the evenings and he doesn’t have to wake up. It doesn’t make sense that we both don’t get any sleep. I can function with little to no sleep where as he can’t so we’re making it work. I’m exclusively nursing so I can not leave the baby alone for more than 3 hours so it’s been a little stressful getting to and from work events. I try to do all of my shoots closer to the house and I bring him with me where ever I can. Unfortunately I can not take the train just yet so we are taking car service everywhere we go. Luckily he’s a really good baby so I have been able to accomplish a lot but I think I’m in dire need of a little relaxation sometime very soon!
I’m so happy that I was fortunate enough to have another healthy child and I’m making sure to cherish every single moment of it. Im grateful to have such a hands on spouse that contributes as much he does because without him, I would be a hot mess! We’re a good team and I couldn’t be luckier!
Thanks for reading today’s Heart to Heart and tip my hat to all of you mothers out there because it’s a hard job!